I feel like I need a blogging "restart". The rest of my life has been in a state of flux for the past six months or so and this little blog has suffered (ha - does that mean that a lot of readers aren't suffering?). Things are s-l-o-w-l-y improving here and I am just going to leave it at that. In fact, we are starting to feel so settled that our quiet thoughts of expanding our family are becoming loud booming voices. Like Sew, when I look at my little girl my uterus aches. I wish I could say that I am grateful for Addie but that diminishes how joyful she makes my entire being. Please, God, bless us with more children!
So, what is a lactating subfertile PCOSer to do? Sitting back and doing nothing would completely go against my style. Even if I am not going to act on a plan, I like to have a plan. Does that make sense? Here's my list:
- Gear up for the low-GI diet again (plan to start when Addie weans)
- Find a fertility doctor (see question below)
- Have a period already. I thought I maybe had one six months ago but b'feeding 5-6 times a day plus PCOS seem to be a great combination for staving off CD1.
We are certainly one of the lucky families who have been able to bring a child into our home and hearts. I feel greedy because I want (many) more and there are still people out there who have none to hold. I think that the guilty/greedy part of me wants a restart on how we make babies, too. Well, not at the really basic level but by choosing who our doctor is when we try again. When I called our last doctor (whom we really loved and who respected our no-IVF wishes) the receptionist would answer "Blah-blah-blah IVF Clinic". Not exactly what we are completely looking for this time around. Since we've moved halfway across the country we need to find a new doctor anyway.
I like the idea of choosing a doctor who doesn't do IVF, but so far the only option seems to be the NaPro doctor about 1.5 hours away. Although I still appreciate the time that TCIE took to teach me about Creighton, I really don't want to learn a new charting method (I do sympto-thermal) and abstaining for a month would be challenging given that Snicks doesn't feel as strongly about being anti-IVF doctor (he is not for IVF, just to be clear). Could I go to a NaPro doctor but still use sympto-thermal? Is it worth driving 1.5 hours for a clearer conscience, or should we just go down the street?
I am so thankful that my ovaries (finally) popped out an egg 20 months ago and gave us our little pumpkin!!!
5 comments:
Do not feel guilty about begging God for more children! Our maternal hearts long for children, regardless of our age or how many we've had or aren't able to have. It's just how we are! Praise God that you are honoring your maternal heart!
That picture of your family is soooo beautiful! Perfect colors and lighting. Just beautiful!
I'm not sure what to say about the doctor thing. Maybe you can call around to some local Catholic churches and just ask if there is a catholic OBGYN in the area that they would recommend? Or that advertise in the bulletins? Just a thought. I hope your search is fruitful!
I love the picture!!!!! So cute!!! I highly, highly recommend Napro. I drive 45 minutes - 1 hour each way to see my Napro doc (well, you know where I live - so this make sense), and she is one of the biggest blessings God put in our path on our way to concieve Baby B! Yes, there are other great doctors out there, but I really like the personal attention and values that she stood for.
NaPro is worth it!
ted is kaitlin :)
Glad to hear things are improving. The picture of you three is beautiful! A is getting so big!
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