Stalled...

Snicks and I ventured to the RE this morning to check out my follies.  On Thursday the right side had one good one... today - it was the same size - it had stalled out!  So, he bumped me up to 200mg of C.lomid and we'll recheck in a few days.  His hope is that the extra C will give it a little boost (me too, as we dropped another $270 for a quick u/s today - ugh).

One perk was that Snicks and I were able to have a "breakfast date" because my mom and sister were visiting.  We didn't want to clue them in to our new attempts to TTC so we asked for a breakfast date morning.  They were more than happy to oblige and spend their morning with AG.  It was a nice little treat, for sure!  We went into Old Town of F.or.t Col.li.ns and found an okay b'fast place.  The company was top notch even if the food was just good.

AG is growing up so quickly.  She now says "mwah" when she wants to give kisses - so darn cute!   She loves being outside and is really just a sweetheart.

I am thankful for the sunny, warm weather we have been having - yeah Spring!

Experiences with Fe.mar.a?

Hello!  I think I have regrouped mentally and am able to start facing the world again.  The past couple of weeks have certainly been rough and I am happy to blame hormones!  LOL 

Snicks and I met with our new RE last week.  The plan was just to be introduced and get to know his style, and then make a procreative push in June.  Well, we walked out the door with a scrip for 150 mg Cl.omid (I didn't respond to 100mg with last RE) and the plan to try Fe.mar.a when/if the Clo.mid didn't cause me to ovulate.  Although my temp spiked today, I won't know until the ultrasound on Thursday if my body responded to the C (which I doubt because I felt and continue to feel completely normal).  At that point, the RE would like to try out Fe.mar.a (after a blood preg test, of course).  I would love to hear the good and bad experiences of those who have taken F just so that I know what I COULD be in for... :) 

The "plan" (I laugh when I write that) is to cross off C and F as ways to stimulate my ovaries (they are sort of stubborn) so then we can move to injectibles if needed.  Snicks and I want to go as low-tech as possible primarily because of the stress and cost of monitoring.  Our old insurance policy covered the monitoring ultrasounds and lab work - not so with our new plan.  The RE is also requesting a new S.A. for Snicks (which we are avoiding because 1 - he has always had excellent swimmers and 2 - the cost) which we plan to do IF we get to injectibles.  Also I have a blood test this Friday for general prenatal screening.  Oh, and an HSG once AF comes along.  Phew! 

It is scary to be dipping a toe back into this pool of "unknowns" and "hope", but also so exhilarating! 

I am thankful for people who know more about the endocrine system than I do! 

I just can't...

seem to find joy right now.  I think it is the hormones from weaning AG for a trip that I didn't end up taking.  It could also be that I am uninspired by work but MUST work because of the choice we have made for Snicks to pursue his PhD full-time.  Or, maybe it's because that lack of inspiration has led to lack of motivation at work which I was called on by my boss yesterday.  Or, maybe it is because I just can't seem to get my arms around everything that there is to do, especially when my arms just want to be around my husband and daughter.  I need to stop reading blogs for awhile, especially those of the SAHMs (sorry, no offense ladies, I still love you all!).  Just as before we had AG I desperately wanted to have a baby - now I desperately want to have the ability to stay home and care for my daughter.  The difference is that I had hope that we would conceive and enjoyed reading the blogs of those who had made it to the "other side".  Now, I have no hope of staying home (at least not in the next three years) and reading about others' time with their children is like a punch in the gut.  I am already saddened enough with not knowing what AG's favorite toys are, where she learned that cute dance move, and who showed her how to spin around on her toes. 

I am thankful that I have such a loving husband who has miraculously known the right words to say or that I need a hug from AG and him at just the right time in the last few days. 

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Saturday!

Pretty pumped for this Saturday... here's a clue as to why I am so excited:

I am so thankful for our blogging community.